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What to Expect When You're Aborting

I’m 23, I’m knocked up. I’m not keeping it. You can fuck yourself Judd Apatow. expectanabortion at gmail dot com

y’all.October 27 2008

y’all.

regrets on overshare: you simply have to love the cyber delay of an IM chat about your vaginaOctober 20 2008

insecure self-effacing me: i switched it to private because I was so embarrassed about this whole thing. I had made the mistake that a thousand girls had made.
acerbic, brutal male: you believed that the guy would pull out?
me: not the abortion, the overshare.
me: HAHAHHA oh my god.

To hell with all that: Archives are backOctober 19 2008

Pretty emotional from re-reading them. I will explain my reasons for unlocking them and all that some other time. There’s a whole paradox to this of course. I would to like to live in a place where abortion isn’t such a polarizing, seemingly life-changing event. It wasn’t for me. Not at all. I’ve been in more pain and anguish from a twisting my ankle. The pregnancy was the agony, 7 weeks of vertigo and mood swings. The abortion was a breeze.

So I want to put the whole thing behind me. I don’t want to count down every day from the abortion (this happens to be the one month anniversary). So blogging about it everyday and fielding emails about it —once again, if you email me to debate this shit I will ignore it but if I’m two drinks in you will get the sharpest side of tongue. Some of you readers have experienced that. I make no apologies. You should fucking know better — just makes it all there all the time. All the time.

But the response has been so great. The out pour. The support. And I just like it. It’s fun joking about this and getting mad and mounting my cyber high horse. Anyways, hope you stick around. And I hope you enjoy this

Here are the highlights :

• Day One: Fuck.

PhotoOctober 17 2008

Abortion Recovery Kit!October 10 2008

A fellow lady who had corrective womb surgery and I came up with this. I had a  few friends send care packages and it was the greatest thing. It made me feel so loved and proud. If you wanna tell your lady that she’s the cunt-loving master of her sexual universe I suggest putting together something like this. (Or if you wanna prepare these things yourself like I did)

First you’ll need a crucifix and crushing sense of shame — OMG JJJJJJ FUCKING KAAAY.

1. Salty borthy soup/crackers — after surgery your body is alll waaaahhhhhh. I threw up a grip from the morphine so for every one’s sake you want to put stuff in you that’s easy on the belleh.

2. Hot Tea/ Port Wine/ Bourbon — If you were like me you couldn’t hold down the booze during the fetus invasion. Now is the tip to slowly sip some sweet ambrosia. Its so soothing. Stay away from beer. It makes you more bloaty.

3. Fuckin Popcicles — You earned sweetness —but not dairy! That shit is hard to deal with after surgery.

4. At least 1-2 season’s worth of quality tv dvds. You really can’t do too much while you’re recovery except sleep and complain about cramps. Take the day to watch the a show that you can nod in and out of. I watched 2 seasons of The Office. I cried a lot.